Truth: who I once was and who I am now are very different.
At one point of my life this was the best statement ever! (And that transformation still is! That would be when I fell in love with Jesus) But this transformation is not my favorite. I have never liked being able to look back on a better me. I always want to be getting better. We’re all either growing, dying, or stagnant and I always want to be found growing.
On one hand, I have continued growing and bettering myself. I have been growing as a leader. As a pastor. As a wife and mother. As a designer, a singer, as a friend. On another hand, I have been failing slowly. In a word…discipline. As a person, I have let discipline slide slowly but dramatically.
When we started the invitro process (FOREVER ago now), one of the ways it got to me that stuck around was how I discipline my body and my health. When I felt the depression of the situation we were walking through, it stopped me in my tracks in many ways. I have grown through most of that, but the lingering, and very difficult part that is left is my health.
Time in the gym is something I do ‘if I have time.’ Like it’s a luxury, where it used to be a necessity. Why necessity? Because being healthy in our old age so we can continue a great quality of life is something that Brandon and I have held as very important. We look up to older people that still get around and stay active. I mean, Cher is 71 and just performed at the Billboard awards! Come on! That doesn’t come from eating whatever you want and letting your health not be a priority.
One thing I know is that every part of our lives is connected. Which pains me to think about where I might be in life right now had I kept disciplined for these past 2 years. Yes, I feel like I’ve been growing in other areas. But how much more if I felt good about myself and was practicing discipline in every area?
So…today is my day 1. That doesn’t mean I’ll be perfect starting today. Probably not even really great. But I will be better. Then on day 2 I’ll be even better. I know WHAT to do. (Most of us do.) The trick is doing it…
What could you improve to be your best ever? Do yourself a solid and tackle something. It’s time to GROW. (Because it’s always time to grow.) Decide on your day 1 and just start.
Like, decide right now and start.
PS…Victory number 1: I have donuts EVERYWHERE from Asher’s birthday party and I chose this for lunch (nevermind the paper plate. haha)…
Egg whites with spinach and feta, fresh strawberries, cafe au lait with vanilla brewed coffee and warm vanilla soy milk. Score.